MY 2008 ^.^

its now 1am on31st DeC 2008.i shud have slept but instead get out from my room and decided to blog here. finally i come to the end of this year.jus wish to record all the things that i hv experienced throughout this year.

HAPPIEST>>1
To be qualified as esther"s happiest event in 2008, its no doubt joining 2008 children camp.Through this camp, i know a lot of good buddies in my life especially gan,siewling n peiwen. haha..before that , we are lik strangers when seeing each other in the library.but surprisingly our friendship get strengthened till now after the meaningful children camp!haha..of course, idid knw a lot of other pbhp frenz too which highlighted my life.we hv gone through ipoh trip, teluk batik trip, steamboat, cycling,sawah padi trip, gua tempurung trip, sungkai trip etc.those happy n memorable moments wil keep inside my heart forever n i appreciate our friendship very muc. i jus hope no matter how, we can still keep in touch..haha

>>2
my spm result. though its nt the perfect1, i m contented as i get wat i wish at las.my hard work is paid off finally.i m proud of myself. along this 18 years, i hv done my bes in my academic n i hv no regret!i really wanna thank those who give me deepest support during exam period when i need motivation the most.without u guys, i wont be succesful. now wat i wish hv been achieved, so i got to put more effort to realise my nex dream! i knw the process is hard n overwhelmed with tonnes of challenges. but i got no choice.i hv chosen the path..i got to work hard!

SORROW PART>>
yea..its no doubt the most sorrow part..it keeps haunting me till now. i got cheated!i give whatever i can n do whatever u lik jus to strenghten our friendship!i thought u value it as wat i do.but i jus kept overwhelmed by disappointment!i keep telling myself to forgive n i did it. and it ended to hurt me more!i m lik a fool! u give me the happiest memory n the most sorrow part, did u ever know?u wont knw forever cos i never track any sadness on ur face.nw u r lik a liar to me! anyway, thanks for stepping into my life n give me this lesson. start from 2009, u r depleted from my memory, frenz..

APOLOGIZE>>
To my dearest family, i always feel sorry to them especially my grandma n mother, i never play my role as a good granddaughter n daughter. whenever i come bac, i keep hanging around wit my friends n never take time to chat wit u all..i m sorry..i love u! nobody can ever take over ur place!

NEW YEAR RESOLUTION>>
-In my study , i wish to achieve my target n get the entrance to my dream University
-i wish to control my bad tempered n always have a good relationship with my family n friends
-jus lik the birthday wish , the third 1 is always kept inside the heart..haha..shuuuu...

whatever had passed, i wish to let it go n have a good start in the year 2009!gambahteh , YinSHia!!

Merry Christmas 2008

hohoho~~really had a memorable n nice christmas celebration wit u guys yday...especially the gift exchanging session..i always dream to hv such activitiy during christmas..at las we all did it.it was so fun!!i think the the value of the gift really does nt matter..the most important part is we all really paid effort while choosing the gift right?n we enjoyed the process..i dunno how to describe the feeling together wit u all..it is instead so warm n fun to gather wit u all..i miss the laughter when we are all together...haha..although sometimes we did purposely make fool of some ppl, but its jus for fun...do hope that all of us wont mind..few more days a new year 2009 is coming..i sincerely hope that we all can still keep in touch well with each other...its nt easy to find a gang lik this..its lik a family for me!!i always feel appreciate to know u guys..haha...and lastly happy advanced birthday to siewling! we purposely celebrated it earlier cos some of us might be leaving for study 2mrw..gan had sacrificed for a lot to make this celebration a success one...fetch us here n there...haha...so siewling, u knw how to balas balik la?hhaa...joking la..

yinshia^^

Goodbye 2008, Hello 2009!!!!!

Erm...2day is 10th of dec alr.20+ days more, wil end tis year..n of course my bday is cuming oso.hehe..hope2 hv a wonderful birthday celebration..aherm...anyway,bac2 my topic.345 days hd past in year2008...left only few days nw...
haiz..tink bac,during early of the year,i hv made sum wishes n things tat i must do during tis year...pheuwss...time flies...i duno whether my wishes hs come true o nt...n im nt sure did my things get done....so hv2 sit bac n refresh bac the whole year..what i have done???
Eherm..well,for me,its really a tough time n can say tough year oso...y???still remember the time i took the result,all the prob i faced when i made my choice,n during tat time im really feel like helpless n blur bout my future...haiz,so scared tat the decision i make wil make me regret,duno wat should i do next..when i saw all my frens enter Uni,still remember wat i felt....terrible...nightmare for me...anyway, i stil hv2 go through my life....
Wee..after all, i felt tat im quite enjoy my life tat i'v chosen.teaching life is fun..felt tat is suit4 me...bt at tis time,i start2 worry wat others tink bout m3...well,after all,i felt beter n nw im proud wat i am doin now!!chldren camp,chinese youth camp,n oso dyc hv coloured my life too...
bsides tis,i can sence n test my friendship among friends...i should say its a good time2 prove the strength n the bond between fren...n i hv seen much bout tat..appreciate it...i can say tat lofe in 2008 is up n down...so it really make me learn a lot....
Ok...anyway,2008 almost past..n now i hv2 make a new wish again..hehe...wat hd past is alr past...so nt only me,hope all of u wil make a new hope4 a brand new year..
erm..let us make a wish...'have a peace world',cz now v can c the world is sick..nt only the enviroment is polluted,the people here r all 'polluted' too...haiz...for me,HAPPINESS is important too..nowadays people are so stress,they seems like not really enjoy their life n misunderstood wat life stand for!!!hehe..so i hope all of us can find the true happiness....
The rest is up to u all la...pls try2 tink4 it...make ur future a beter day..make ur life more meaningful...make ur world bright..n paint ur world wif different colour...PLS.make a beter day for u n for me..

siewling

what does human stand for?

sometimes i feel lik a failure..in dealing wit friends , study , family, anything..thats y i always tel myself that its nt easy to grow up as a human..i sincerely admire those who can live til so old..they have gone through so muc , yet stil live happily..ya..perhaps its easy to seek for happiness..but depends on the character o perspectives that u hold..i m always longing for a happy life.thats the hardest stage in life i guess..i hate disappointment, yet cant avoid it..stil got to go through it one by one..so what does human stand for at las? live until the end of the day n reborn again!!go through all the sadness, sorrow, happiness, excitement, disappointment that u had b4..yea..perhaps..thats human

Yinshia

2/12/2008

2/12/2008--
today, is a very confusing day for me. Well, woke up early in the morning, accompany mother to go to bank to settle some stuff. Then, went to a gathering with my group member during DYC at KFC. Wow, it's so nice to meet with them after the camp. We cracked a lot of joke and shared a lot of funny incidents during the camp. Hmm..i felt that i am even closer with them now compared to during camp. WHY? mayb be during camp i am too fierce and i forced them to speak in English. Haha..it's a warmth and nice time to gather with them. at night, i have a mission with YB(yang blur-blur), Yin Shia and siew ling. Hmm..what is that?it's to celebrate my twins sister, PeiWen's birthday! hmm..though her birthday is on 4 dec, she has to go to the Penang on 3 dec. so, we have our celebration earlier. We gathered in my house and we bought a cute pillow with cute giraffe on it. Then, we have a cake, a mocha cake. Ahem..our mission started on 8.30pm...YB, fetch us to Pei Wen's house with his BMM(big mouth man).haha..we stopped our car opposite to peiwen's house. so, i went down to call her out while Siew ling they all preparing the candles and the cake. I waited so long but they not appeared at all. Hmm..what happened?lucky pei wen's brother, yong hao came out and called peiwen to go into the house. So, i went to check what is happening. OMG!!guess what, the lighter that our "brilliant" YinShia brought not function at all. Hmm..thanks to the brilliant YinShia. haha...So, to overcome all the "incident", siewling had to "borrow" candle light from the temple next to peiwen's house. Hmm..it's a "great experience" that we have. Haha..OMG,Peiwen came out again.haiz..i have to go there and stop her for a moment while waiting them settle the candles. then, finally, they appeared with the candle and cake. we sang birthday song to her at the road side. haha..then, we went into her house to eat the cake and in the same time forced peiwen to show us her BF's photo. However, we failed to do so. Hmm..so secret. After that, we went to LANA for the 2nd round and met with JaySern. then we have a long chat in LANA...what a wonderful day..
Oh ya, forgot something, peiwen has been upgraded to become lame-po. haha..no more lame luiz lo..and we have our lame slogan when we met with peiwen. EVERY one must PAY ATTENTION...忠中厚厚、老老实实、头发没有尖尖的,we are so sad,verysad,upset,downsad,leftsad,rightsad,centre sad,all sad,LAME SAD..this is our slogan when we meet peiwen..remember to say it oh...miss you guys. Love you all..muakz
by,
lameluiz
KaiChur

random expression

看过了朋友的部落格，突然也想学他把心中的话写出来。
朋友对我说 。。每次看到一直很想看到的人时，回到家时心里却是难过的，这是什么？
朋友对我说。。已经是过去了，为什么还放不下。。对方已经很明显了吧？！
朋友对我说。。每次醒来时，希望看到电话是他的未接电话或信息，因为以前的他大多数会酱的。。可是已经好久好久没有这样了！
朋友对我说。。她很不甘心，之前的诺言是什么？为什么当初两人能无话不说。。如今面对面时，变得无话可说。。混在朋友当中， 也只是纯粹的问候。。对方就好像 什么事也没发生过似的， 是他放下了， 还是根本没当过是一回事？！
朋友对我说。。她忘不了！每次在朋友面前的虚伪和熟络只会加剧她的痛楚。。她憎恨对方当初给她的种种诺言， 约定，甜言蜜语。。到后来却草率的了断， 一句面对面的解释也没有！这算什么？！
朋友对我说。。 每次看到他， 种种已埋没在心底的思绪又会涌上心头。。她很想忘记，她宁愿做回好朋友，什么事也没发生过。。可笑的是， 其实什么也没发生过，或许是她当时想太多， 对方只不过把他当成是代替品， 就这么简单！
我只想对她说。。 算了吧！别再对他抱以任何希望了。他或许是你的茶，可是却不属于你！别再心卵了。。不是你的就不是你的。时间是就好的良药， 当你找到更好的时，才知道现在的自己是如此的傻啊！对吧？！

my schedule

Greetings,
this will be my schedule for the coming next two week.
28 November - 3 december i will be in International Islamic University there for the ROYALS (local public university debating tournament), one break day on the 4 december,
then on 5-7 december i will be at IMU in bukit jalil for the National Health Science Debate. break again on the 8th of december, and finally 9-12 december will be the Human Rights debate in UiTM Shah Alam.
see you guys again soon. tk care and best wishes!!!
jiacheng

AnOthEr SuccessFul year of DYC

I just want to say a few words about the DYC camp that we had. It was indeed a successful camp again this year. Everything planned went on smoothly, and we have lots of wonderful moments there. I am really happy to see that the camp was successful and it was indeed a good camp. Though through out the 5 nights we had very little much sleep, but it was all worth it. I am not going to run through all the programs that we had, but i would like to just highlight a few great programs. The talent night was a good one....the emcee did a marvelous job....treasure hunt also was a great one and my self did enjoy the last program the most, the sharing night on the last night. and again we have got another chance to work together as camp committees. it really brings back the good old days that we had as previous other camp committees. the kind of wonderful feeling we had working with each other, guiding the younger committees....the awesome fellowship that we had throughout this five days camp is great, teasing...kacauing....laughing...eating...working...sharing....and more, just really wonderful and GREAT!!! i miss those fellowships a lot. alright, i wont blog that much more first. so congratulations to all the camp committees!!! the DYC was a real success and we had lots of fun time also fellowship time and got to knows new friends.
I just finish my debate training at 2.30 am just now, and thought of blogging about the DYC camp here since no one like have blog about it. got to sleep, tomorrow will be another long day of training for me.
I miss you guys here!! just cant help but to remember all those great memories we had in camps and also PBHP!!! will be back soon to join you all again. happy holidays and sukhihotu!!!

With mega metta,
Bro Gan Jia Cheng

have fun after final

haha..jus feel lik wanna share wit u all after my first ever dancing..haha..its really fun...feel like started to love dancing!!haha...its cool...got to perform this fri..still got kind of hip hop dance...wil upload ore if possible...now jus the practice part!!!haha..look forward to the musical performance in my college!!yeah!!haha..any comment abt my dancing..i knw its bit ugly!!but v learnt it within 30 minutes leh!!haha...its act farenheit n SHE dance...super nice n romantic!!haha...give some comment la..haha

DYC latest update...

hey al the lame members......erm..now dyc is progressing..erm...everything can count as OK..but the problem i worry is mentors prob..cz they r too young 2 guide the participant..so as my plan i wan u all cum bac n b mentor...but ur 'DEAREST" sis.ong dun aree..n now plus another sis heng who is same gang wif her..
so now im realyy fed up2 work wif them..their idea n plan r *@#%$....so now i cant do anything...so i hope when u al came u al really can help out in mentors...especially in treasure hunt...thx 1st....
erm...others is still ok la....everything hv2 setle myself...hv2 tink my own...now i din hv the ex-co...realy so miss 2006 dyc...u al really help me a lot...meeting everyday...almost v wil meet every single day b4 the camp...bt now..only me alone..i cant fine any1 to discuss...to meeting..haiz....
anyway,hope everything wil run smoothly....DYC!!!!!!

siewling

1sT SeM 1n INTEC....

Chicagoans n Bday Boy, Raymond

Chicagoans Guys (Very Gay+Pervert)

scary+sad+hectic+crazy+happy+absolutely crazy+enjoyable+memorable=my 1st sem in INTEC
long time never update myself ady... so as i've completed my 1st sem in Intec, i tink it's a suitable time 4 me 2 write sth bout it n jot down my memories in Intec...

"CHICAGO"- my class name... da 1st time i enter da class... 9 guys 15 gals... my 1st thought... kind of lame... how m i goin 2 survive in tis class... omg... i feel damn sad... then... 1 guy went off... v had a farewell party wit him... Thiban is his name... a great fren... although he left, v still keep in touch wit him n he remains as a chicagoan in our heart...

then, a new guy join our big family... ashraf... a cool guy join tis class... tis is da time v started 2 form a bond btw all of chicagoans... v start 2 enjoy like nobody's business... v start 2 feel like v r 1 family... v start to like each other... v play around... v get crazy 2gether... v enjoy 2gether...

after that... 3 newbies join our family... kaneson, li sia, bavani... 2 gals r like quiet quiet gals... except 4 kaneson... his entrance 2 chicago change da class atmosphere completely... v bcom crazier n craziness grow each day... as time goes by... da 2 new gals started 2 show their tails... they started 2 participate n r even more crazier than v did... so a lame class transform in2 a psychiatric hospital... haha... now chicago is fully equipped... v hav smart heads... v hav perverts... v hav maths genious... v hav gangsters... v hav blur guys... v hav own transports... wat else could v ask 4...

then, sth new came out... da oni 2 indian guys (daveen n kaneson) in our class started 2 call themselves "Gods"... omg... can dis class go even more crazier... bak kut teh(means god bless u in sanskrit according 2 those gods) bcom our topic everyday... then more gods appeared... god of maths (young han)... gods of s_x(kar wai)... gods of china(me), god of metals(raymond) pop out from nowhere... n everyone start 2 say bak kut teh everyday... i like tis class...

at times... chicago will book da whole restaurant... i mean part of restaurant but as if v book da whole place coz v laugh like nobody's business... haha... then v hav dinner... celebrate ppl's bday... victims of surprise bday celebration: yi lin(our class rep), ME, n raymond... honestly... they dun hav 2 do dis... but i'm really shocked, touch, surprised, blur when everyone celebrate my bday wit me... feel like crying tat nite.... n honestly... i did cried under my pillow... thx guys... ur surprise party really mean a lot to me... then, i love tis class even more...

towards da end of 1st sem... v take pic wit each other n oso wit lecturers... ya... talk bout lecturers, they r awesome... they r superb lecturers... thx 2 them... my eng improved a lot... come bac 2 chicago... v started 2 feel reluctant during da las few days of da 1st sem... then, it's our final exam... everyone studied hard n never 4get, v wished each other gud luc b4 da exam... after exam... it's free... chicagoans hav 2 leave each other...

but b4 v left... da las day of exam, chicagoans left their footmark at mid valley... they left their footmark at Golden Screen Cinema... they left their footprint at bowling alley... they hav meals at Kenny Rogers n Little Penang... they enjoyed da whole day... they go bac 2 shah alam... they r not done yet... they sat at mamak stall n chat til 1am... but they r still not done yet... they change venue 2 McD... they had a long chat till 6am at da mornin... then they go bac 2 their respective hostels... dat was da las day... but tat was da las day chicagoans knw each other deeper... da bonds grow stronger... it was til da las day tat they finally knw each other... da real personality of each other... so... it was seriously a crazy n sentimental day... n in fact a hapi day 4 2 of da chicagoans... a new couple is born... their name is 4 me 2 knw n 4 u 2 find out... hehe... da las day ended... chicagoans hav 2 separate... they couldn't b classmate anymo...

da 1st sem in Intec... it was a memorable 1... i've grown up alot...
da 1st sem in Intec... i found frens....
da 1st sem in Intec... i learn 2 mix wit other ppl...
da 1st sem in Intec... i learn 2 4giv ppl...
da 1st sem in Intec... I did my own laundry...

haha...

p.s. To any chicagoans tat might read tis blog::
*thx guys 4 making my 1st sem a meaningful n memorable 1
*thx guys 4 da surprise bday party...
*thx guys 4 4giving my mistake...
*finally... if i've done sth wrong, pls 4giv me... i really apologize...

toast 4 chicagoans:: Maritha, Jessica aka gengster, Yi Lin aka aunty(class rep), Nur Ain, Syawa, Farah, Tung lun aka hamsap, Renuhaa aka rain, Hema aka dude, Parvathee aka Par, Jasina aka Master JJ, Vinnie, Siong Yi, Young Han, Raymond, Kar Wai, Daveen, Kaneson, Ayuni aka JK Ayuni, Kher Lee aka loudspeaker, Yati, Bavani, Li Sia, Ajwad, Ashraf, Ali

miz u guys... love u guys... CHICAGO ROX!!!

Mm....

Well,its time4 me 2 update myself here...if not i wil 'kill' by many people..haha..lolx.
And tis is wat I feel 4 tis few months since the last gathering in poly wata......When i saw every1 of u are so excited 4 Uni things,i realy feel abit upsad...saw u al talking bout many things there....n me????haiz...bcz of sum reason i hv2 stay in teluk intan...n bcum a primary teacher...well,when the time pass, i din feel regret of it.....
And recently, heard so many of the Uni life n many of my frens ask 4 gathering,n i duno y i started2 reject all the gathering...cz when i go there,every1 is sharing their Uni life..then,me???i started2 look down of it....i scared all of my frens will reect me bcz of we din hv the same topic....
so i realy duno how 2 answer them....haiz...
siewling

4 lamelui^^may us be safe

About a month ago there was a woman standing by the Mega Mall entrance passing out flyers to all the women going in. The woman had written the flyer herself to tell about an experience she had, so that she might warn other women.
The previous day, this woman had finished shopping, went out to her car and discovered that she had a flat. She got the jack out of the trunk and began to change the flat. A nice man dressed in business suit and carrying a briefcase walked up to her and said,
' I notice you ' re changing a flat tire. Would you like me to take care of it for you? '
The woman was grateful for his offer and accepted his help. They chatted amiably while the man changed the flat, and then put the flat tire and the jack in the trunk, shut it and dusted his hands off.
The woman thanked him profusely, and as she was about to get in her car, the man told her that he left his car around on the other side of the mall, and asked if she would mind giving him a lift to his car. She was a little surprised and asked him why his car was on the other side. He explained that he had met an old friend in the mall whom he hadn ' t seen for some time and they had a bite to eat and visited for a while; he got turned around in the mall and left through the wrong exit, and now he was running late and his car was clear around on the other side of the mall.
The woman hated to tell him ' no ' because he had just rescued her from having to change her flat tire all by herself, but she felt uneasy. Then she remembered seeing the man put his briefcase in her trunk before shutting it and before he asked her for the ride to his car.
She told him that she ' d be happy to drive him to his car, but she just remembered one last thing she needed to buy. She said she would only be a few minutes; he could sit down in her car and wait for her; she would be as quick as she could be. She hurried into the mall, and told a security guard what had happened; the guard came out to her car with her, but the man had left.
They opened the trunk, took out his locked briefcase and took it down to the police station. The police opened it (ostensibly to look for ID so they could return it to the man). What they found was rope, duct tape and knives.
When the police checked her ' flat ' tire, there was nothing wrong with it; the air had simply been let out. It was obvious what the man ' s motive was, and obvious that he had carefully thought it out in advance.
The woman was blessed to have escaped harm. How much worse it would have been had she waited in the car while the man fixed the tire, or if she had a baby strapped into a car seat. Or if she ' d gone against her judgment and given him a lift. I ' d like you to forward this to all the women you know.
It may save a life. A candle is not dimmed by lighting another candle. I was going to send this to the ladies only; but guys, if you love your mothers, wives, sisters, daughters, etc., you may want to pass it on to them as well.
Send this to any woman you know that may need to be reminded that the world we live in has a lot of crazies in it....better safe than sorry.
ESther^^

Oh yes!!

Oh yes! I can make it to help in DYC...so happy. I will go back to Teluk Intan on 19 November. Fu Yoh...Don't know what can i help in DYC ler...haha...hope you guys can join me too...waiting to see you all..miss you all so much..hope to get crazy again in DYC....
Best of luck for those in university. Enjoy study for the final. and same goes to me too...haha...miss you all..
love,
kaichur

Where is the WILL and our YOUTH???

Where is all the Youth in Teluk Intan, I'm wondering...I heard that there is a problem happened in DYC this year where we are lack of committee who has experience, for example those from F6. Why this will happen? As what i know, there will be too much of committees in DYC until the exco has to reduce the number by eliminating them every year.But why the problem of lack of committee will happen in DYC this year? Yea, it may be not lack of committee,i should say is lack of experienced committee.Where are they and when they go? When i heard Bro. Oh said the Saturday night class might be closing for next year, I feel so sad. The Saturday night class teachers are willing to sacrisfy their time to teach in the Saturday night, and yet, the number of students decreasing year after year. It's a sad norm. Youths are the main power of our future buddhism, if youths do not take the effort to learn dharma,then who is going to pass the dharma to our future generation???
I do know that youngsters today are busy with their homework,their academic and also their co-curricular activities. I did before. There is sometime where i need to decide,wherethe i want to stay at home and study for my exam or i have to attend the activity in PBHP or neither one of them. It's really hard when we have to face the reality that in our country, result come first then follow by any soft skills. But, i have learnt a lot throughout the activities i Joined in PBHP and i did grew up to become more mature and more responsible. I know how to communicate with people in a proper manner, I know how to handle a situation when it come out of sudden, I have a lot of friends and peers who stand by me. I get a lot of things. I will feel regret is if let go PBHP activities that time. Lucky i m not.
So, girls and guys out there, if you feel free, do come back and help in DYC. I will be there if I have no activity in my university that time..HOPE to see you all there.
love,
KaiChur

taken in 2005 when i went to singapore..my first ever trip to the place away from malaysia..it was such a good memory..but this memory will keep in heart forever and ever ...it wont be repeated again when i received the phone call from my mum this morning..the weather is moody and cloudy..its jus lik what had happen when my teacher passed away..i can sense something is going to be wrong when my friend told me that i had a phone call from my mum..the bad news finally reached to my ears..my aunt in singapore passed away when sleeping without any single signal.i was stunned! i was ady late to my math class when talking to my mum through phone.sitting down on my chair, my tears keep rolling down my cheeks uncontrobally..i was trying to wipe it away as my teachers was teaching at that moment..i was thinking to go to singapore along with my family.but i cant.its too rush..i cant make it..thinking of this, my heart feels even hurt.i cant pay the last respect to my aunt ..act i shud say is my godmother..when she knew that i got excellent result in my pmr, she felt so proud of me and said that she would take me as her goddaughter as she has only a son. its all through phone..i stil owe her a word that she is longing to hear from me " gan ma"..cos that time i was too shy to address her lik that through phone.but its all over!!i dun hv the chance anymore!because of her and my uncle, i got my computer and my electronic dictionary which helped me a lot in my academic..i promise myself that i wil give them a treat when i grow up!i will! but why..why the god grab the chance away from me again..its again!!izzit the opportunity cost that we hv to bear as we grow up!it seems so horrible to me!the feeling is unbearable!scaryness overwhelmed me!what if one day i receive call again and it happen to be my family..i knw that u guys will say that i think too muc and so negatively..bt it wil happen! i m scared..i cant afford to lose anyone anymore especially my dear grandma and mother..please dun ever leave me alone..i m jus a fragile girl that wil meet the breaking point so easily..when thinking that i might be furthering my study abroad, the frighteness get even terrible..i knw i hv to appreciate b4 its too late..i dun1 to experience any guilty and regret feeling for losing anyone..but i cant promise that i can do it cos saying is always easier than applying..somemore now i cant always stay wit my family where the gap wil slowly widen..i dunno wat to do..i jus keep crying n crying today..all the sad thing n pro that happen to me came to my mind..i jus cant control..i wish i can cry it out..cos i m stressed!

the feeling of some1 had been leaving u forever is inexplainable.it did exist but when u r awake , u knw that u hv lost the person in this world..you cant find anyone exactly anymore.its so intangible..whenever i see my electronic dictionary now, i knw that u hv been leaving us..i m sorry , my dear godmother..i cant do anything for u ..the time for us to be together is only so limited..Yet, it wil form the most meaningful puzzle in my life..may u rest in peace..u will always in my heart and continue to inspire me to stay strong!

ESther..sorry that this blog wil be bit messy ..its all my random expression..i jus wish to express out all my frustration n feeling ...

My SecoNd Blog

wow yeah!!my second blog here..haha...firstly HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO KAI CHUR!! hehe...see i m so good!!i still remember although it had dy past!!hehe..pai seh la, kai chur!!and wat yumcha merdeka?!!dun post any important things like gathering in the chat box there!!cos no 1 will know..cos some members are nt active!!not some!!i think almost all except few of us..haha....haha,,quite busy here..so jus drop by to wish kaichur happy bday..will post nex time....and when are v goin to meet in kl together??haha....

from ESther^^

BeCaUs3 u H@v3 a B@d D@y!!

The day was so dark as i woke up... i can sense it's not goin 2 b a gud day... y i can sense tat? bcoz da nite b4... i receive a msg tat i'm not goin 2 hav a transport 2 fetch me bac 2 ti... i'm goin 2 sungkai n ipoh wit my frens to complete my assignmen... but then... i dun hav transport 2 come bac... so i hav no choice but ask my parents 2 go ipoh 2 fetch me... aiz... how guilty i feel... then... i headed 2 sungkai wit frens... then yet another bad news... i hav 2 cramp in a small car takin 6 ppl... but tats ok coz our body size is not tat big n v had fun in da car... then v reach sungkai n realize tat v dun hav a ball 2 play... nvm... v go n buy 1.... then v had fun playin da ball til noon n v plan 2 boil eggs n soak ourselves in da hotspring... on da way... mayb my hand is 2 itchie... i played da ball n it drops in2 da deep cliff... everyone can do nth but 2 watch da ball float away... i felt guilty again coz they din ask me 2 compensate 4 da ball... then it started 2 rain... v manage 2 soak in da hotspring 4 a while n then went 2 take a bath... 2 of my frens go n boil da eggs v brought along... luckily da eggs were nice... then v wanted 2 head 2 ipoh... but da drama had juz started... on of da car's tyre deflated... aiz... v can oni wait at sungkai until my fren pumped da tyre... but dis is not bad enuf... da worst ting is... while v were waitin... da key of da other car (v drove 2 cars) dropped in2 a pond full of fish... omg... can dis day go any worse?? aiz... luckily... a gud guy dived in2 da pond n helped us 5 da key... thank god he found it... but... da alarm couldn't work... SH*T!! v opened da door usin da key n da car alarm started 2 ring... aiz... v tried vy hard 2 5 da alarm setter... but V COULDN'T 5!!! WTF!! v search help everywher n luckily a mechanic came n found da switch... phew... finally v can go ipoh... da route 2 ipoh was not a smooth 1... it rained so heavily n v can hardly c da road... but thank god thank Buddha... v arrive ipoh savely... phew... wat a relieve... then i went 2 watch movie wit my ipoh frens as it was da assignmen... i nid 2 watch a "...." movie n wasted 2 hours ther... aiz... after da movie... da bad day roughly ends... i said gudbye 2 my frens n went bac wit my parents... n thank everythin i arrive in a piece... lol...
Conclusion + Feelin: it was a bad day... really bad day... juz like daniel powter's song... i really had a bad day... but luckily i hav my frens n my parents 2 go through da day wit me... thx my frens 4 not complainin 2 fetch me 2 ipoh... thx my frens 4 helpin me 2 complete my assignmen... without u all... i wont b able 2 complete my assignmen n thx 4 givin me a memorable n great vacation... i tink i can hardly 4get dat day... thx everyone... luv u guys n frenship 4eva.... nex... thx my parents who went 2 ipoh juz 2 fetch me bac (of course they went shoppin oso)... luv u mummy n daddy... n thx ipoh frens... help me buy ticket n accompany me 2 watch da horror movie... thx a lot... thank god... thank Buddha... it wasa a bad day but i consider lucky coz i'm stil alive... hehe... i'll take tis as a challenge n lesson... i'll grow wiser... it's not a vy bad day after all...

lame zai - bad luck de YB

kooi ling's convo...

Well guys, 5 aug is our big sister, KOOI LING's convocation...her master convo..well, nth much to talk bout it cause i didn't manage to go into the hall to attend the convocation as she just allowed to bring in 2 people to attend the ceremony. I have bought her a handbag, a POLO handbag and a tin of mushroom soup. Well, when i walked towards the DTC,the place where the convo held, i was thinking, em...ppl convo where got no flower 1..so i went to buy a flower there. haha..it's nice!...well, i took quite some picture with her but all in her camera,i just can post up 1 that is in my handphone to share with you all..it's really nice to see my friend in the convocation...CONGRATULATIOn KooiLIng...

love,
kaichur

life so far at INTEC..

well, it has been 3 weeks since i come INTEC... at first i tot life in college would b a relaxin one but i was absolutely wrong... da schedule is so packed n i hardly hav time 2 eat n wash my clothes... cant imagine it huh... however, life here's ok and i'm able 2 cope wit it (although it's quite stressful)... but overall i did enjoy it... i meet lots of ppl n made lots of frens n everyone seem 2 b vy frendly n i feel rather lucky... everyone here is so gud in their eng n i feel so small in INTEC... i try my best 2 communicate in eng 2 improve my eng... i tink now i can speak better eng (although it is still quite bad) but i tink if i use da language often, i'll improve it... n SAT exam is drawin near n i still duno wat m i doin... my vocab sux... how m i goin 2 sit 4 da exam... luckily da lecturer's r real pro n i tink wit their guidance i shud b able 2 do it... n i oso hav 2 put my own effort in my study... now... i'm juz workin 2 improve my vocab n hopefully at the end of the day, my lexicon of words can increase drasticly... miss ti so much ar... miss lame zai lame lui so much ar... hope tat v can meet each other in da future...

from lame zai - YB

nice day for me and would like to share with you all

wow...19th of july 2008, a meaningful day for me since the day i come to UM. What is so meaningful? haha...i followed the Persatuan Buddhist UM to Tiratana orphanage and pay a visit there. Well,though need to wake up early in the morning which i don't like to do on Saturday.haha...you might think i am lazy,i admit, i am..well,went to Tiratana orphanage is my wish as well,as that day i watched the 8tv's news which screened out the orphanage...once i reached there,there was an indian girl who is so cute hug me immediately...i know,she love the kind of feeling of hugging...me 2..she gave me a kiss as well,that's nice...well,today is Chief Rev--Rev. Tiratana 's birthday...those children had done a good job in performing a very nice dance to their beloved father,Rev.Tiratana...today was the 1st time i managed to talk to rev and being so close to him.he is so nice,kind and adorable as well when he smile..haha..taken a pic with him.hahathen,we proceed to the buddhist house of Persatuan Buddhist University Malaya. i went to "hua yu" xue yuan. they sang the song that im so familiar to,that is "yuan zhi jia","ba ai chuan xia qu" and "A family we are"...those are the songs that i learnt in PBHP.the feeling is like Im back to Teluk Intan,Im in PBHP...when sharing,i told them bout it...i really thank those committee from the bottom of my heart as you all really touched my heart today..thanks a lot for letting me feel that im home,make me feel so warm and happy...i love it!
well,i would like to send my deep condolence to mrs leow's family,may mrs leow rest in peace. We love you, mrs leow...
love,
kaichur

My deep heart feeling...

This is my first time posting my blog in this lame blog...left TI for 2 weeks and come back again last two day...When i reach TI,i was like."phew..finally,there is some where i know and some where i familiar to"...look at the surrounding,many memories run back into my mind...
was in KL for the pass 2 weeks...kinda of miss home and kinda of stress there..as im a person who has been used to put my money everywhere,my thing everywhere,but..when i stay in hostel,i cant do like that..this is to prevent other people from breaking the 2nd precept...no stealing..and another reason is because i still cant trust my room mate indeed..don't know how's their characteristic...
i miss yuan zhi jia,i miss all lamezai and lameluiz...i miss the time we being together and try to organize a lot of thing...i miss everything,being in TI is really sweet,but before this,i was long to go out of TI,now i regret..
anyway,i will try to come back as often as i can,then we will meet in TI,
Gambateh to o ...
love,
KaiChur

LaMe FamiLY

The sky is so moody and cloudy on29 June when u guys have left ..in fact, it is drizzling now. Jus lik my feeling..so down and feel lik wanna cry when listening to the sad songs..Our friendship is flourished just within this few months..unexpectedly..still remember all those moments when v laugh, play crazily,merayau-rayau,teasing each other,cracking cold jokes..etc..??haha..that’s the magic of friendship which tight each other forever n ever..

LameLUis
SieW LinG
our blogspot”s manager..start to know u during the eng camp in 3min..then after joining the children camp, we become so close..u r really friendly n helpful..u hv the strong leadership..its true..haha..i feel comfortable to b fren wit u ..i will owaz remember that u grabbed my hand lik a mama when crossing the road in ipoh..haha..n ur Filipina Cantonese is really very cute ..haha..so jus lik to wish u all the best in ur future undertakings although there is obstacles awaiting u ..i bliv that u can overcome it at last because there is always a rainbow after the storm..

PeI WeN
UM medic student..frankly , I m really proud to be ur fren.although we did meet wit each other so frequently in library last tim we jus smile to each other.that”s all..then after the steamboat gathering , our friendship is blooming..especially during our teluk batik trip..i love it so muc..i really dun expect that u can be so crazy!!its so funny when u tried to act as a robot!!haha..still remember tat u sang the dachangjin song after the clock tower gathering?hah..hv lots of memories wit u ..we went 4 the terrible sawah padi trip!!we enjoyed so muc when talking abt the pangkor trip, backpacking in kl though it ends up wit nth at the last..but I m sure we did enjoy the discussion..cos we seems so high!!i knw that ur bright future is awaiting u cos u r owaz a smart student..u knw hw to handle things well.u will be success..just dun forget me..cos I will be ur patient 1 day..hehe..and pls dun imitate me anymore..wow yeah wey!!

SieW MuN
I still remember the first time seeing u ..its cos of yChe..she introduced u to me when v r waiting outside pbhp ..i was in f3 that time..NaH..dun tell me u hv forgotten!!haha..then we got the chance to knw each other more after the children camp..thanks a lot 4 ur steamboat”S souvenir—the slipper!!its really a brilliant idea 4 giving us that..it makes our steamboat gathering more meaningful..i m look forward to another steamboat gathering!!and do keep in touch ya..hehe

LiChen
Act I m impressed by u during the DYC06..know why..cos I love ur soft n gentle voice when u were reading the story during the camp.. happy leh?!and thanks 4 lending me ur baju kurung las time though I din wear it..haha..cos u r TOO TALL..the cloth cant fit me lar!!and I feel that u owaz lik to crack cold jokes 1..so LaMe -.-``if I m not mistaken , the name of lame-fm was suggested by u ..luckily ..if nt dunno when will our discussion be ended..haha..so strike hard 4 ur future..u can do it…

KaiChuR
The future teacher!!cool!!nex tim mus b my children”s private tutor!!and free of charge!!yeah!!haha..act I m shocked by u when u r trying to be fierce in front of all those children during the camp!!scary man!!haha..dunno y .i owaz feel that u r a kind n systematic person.haha.u can plan ur things very well and do it perfectly..u did it .UM educationist!!

LameZais

YingBin
Cracking my heads..what can I say..my old fren..11 years classmate!u r owaz my good opponent!!haha..i enjoyed chatting wit u guys after the interact club”s informal meeting..haha..we all have grown up and its time to diverge to our different path of roads..i miss the time when v tuition together, study together in the library,hanging out wit breakfast gang!!it wont happen again!!still remember abt the “baju dalam” during MUET tuition!!u r so geli man!ham sap!..its bit unbelievable when thinking that we hv graduated from 2nd sch..knwing each other since year1..hv lots of feeling!really!!i guess u too!!anyway fight hard 4 ur future!!and do keep in touch owaz my old fren!!

JaYSerN
Proud to be ur fren act cos u went to japan b4..haha..so envy!!we start to be close since this year when involving in children camp!haha..then went 4 several trips together..its nice to flash back!!u hv ur own dreams n enjoy learning new things ..haha..so good luck in whatever u do..jus dun forget me k?haha..u r owaz my best partner when talking abt photo-snapping.haha..remember our promise ya!next station –kuantan!!

NiChoLaS
My mentor during DYC06..its so nice that we still manage to come out together, being so friend after 2 years..haha..guess that 1 m the only 1 that u r quite close from FREEDOM group right? That time u really look alike HARRY POTTER!!nw??i also dunno wat to say when seeing ur primary photo in msn..dunno hw 2 describe..its neither geli nor handsome!!haha…dun beat me!!hehe..do keep in touch wit me after goin to kelantan leh, si doctor!!!haha..blek…dun call me si accountant pls!!hehe..i wanna be ur patient nex time too!!

KK
Sheng HuO ZhU member..yeah!!another future doctor!!haha..again..bcos of children camp we know each other..u r a smart n nice person..nw bcum handsome jo wo after changing ur hairstyle!haha..dunno when can meet u again..u r goin so far..but dun worry we wil miss u here..study hard there so that u can treat me nex time..we all are supporting u here..gambahteh!!

PangYi
Still remember our first ever “project”?that was a simple drama during the camp!!haha…dun expect that we can stil act quite naturally..haha..quite a good job that time..and act u look very funny..i dunno y.i owaz feel that u are very funny lor ..especially when u were flying kites at speedy that time..running non stop yet the kite is stil on the floor!!so lame!!haha..but I m quite pui fuk u deep inside my heart geh..cos u are a smart m diligent person ..future actuary wo.dun play play ..haha..

JiaCHeng
U r lik a big bro to us!!especially during cycling..took gd care of us..haha..a good papa!!act I feel so glad to hv u as my fren!!we hv gone through so many memories..camp,ipoh trip, cycling.steamboat gathering,teluk batik trip, sawah padi trip, playgroud,speedy,poly wata farewell gathering!!really thanks 4 ur advice n support whenever I need help..u r owaz lending me a helping hand..thanks so muc…gonna miss u here..haha..look forward to our gathering again in kl one day…Kim GarY..wow yeah WEY!!!haha..

Its nt easy to find a group of good frens lik u guys..i m really very lucky..no matter wat happens, I hope that our friendship is tighten forever!!if there is any obstacle o pro in ur life, do share wit each other..cos v r from lame_fm!!once LaMe , 4ever LaMe!!

LameLUi YinSHia^^

everyone... do ur best!!

"答应你我不会离去, 我们只是短暂的分离;
我会在附近, 紧握着回忆, 陪着你前进.
答应我你不会哭泣, 我们有过那么多约定;
因为我相信, 只要我相信, 就会有奇迹."

i extract it fr a song n i feel it is vy meaningful... hope tat v wont 4get each othr.. v r juz separated temporalily... as long as v have each othr in our heart, frenship will last 4eva... n v will stay side by side n head towards our dream... becoz i bliv, as long as i bliv, there will b miracles... everyone... G@mb@t3H!!

lame zai YB...

1st post fr l@me z@i!!

hi... juz givin a try n yahoo... i'm da 1st lame zai 2 post in tis blogspot... gimme a prize la... hahaha... wanna go study ad lo... hope tat everyone can realize our dream n try our best n strive hard 2 achieve our goal la...