Who should I tell???

huh...its a brand new year again..well,2day is the 7th day of year 2009...and is the 4th day i go2 a new sch...
actually since the year end of 2008,many things happen...my mum gt operate, secret..,n the surprised thing i gt transfer2 a sch which is far away from my house..and all these things change my life a lot.really a lot.1st,i lost my chance2 go outing wif frens during holiday..really miss it,n i din enjoy my holiday well too..cz its due to my mum jz operate,n i hv2 take k of her n stay at hospital2 take k of her...n during tat time i jz imagine hw my frens go here n there...n i cant move anywhere..huh..wat a terrible feeling!!!!since then,my life change a lot...
I have2 cook4 my mum everyday..go market every morning..do house chores..hv2 take k of mym mum..u noe tat feelings??every moment i hv2 stay bside her..even she go2 toilet,bath etc...huh..for me,its quite a tough task..u noe,during tat time,im really ....duno hu2 express out my feelings...
ok,next,my transfer2 the new school...erm...wat should i say,its a new experience4 me..a small school...bt im nt very like the way HM treat sum1..haiz..n as i said b4 i hv2 do house work everyday...n cook4 my mum.so when the school reopen,i hv2 wake up early 2 cook sth4 my mum..sumtimes hv2 cook soup the nite b4..n when iim bac from sch its alr 4++,n i hv2 sweep the floor n mop the floor,then hv2 prepare diner again...tats the life when the school life...huh..im really so tired of tat,really...everyday hv2 do so many things...then sumtimes only can rest at 8pm after doin all the stuff.cant imagine hw my life hv2 carry on..n sumtimes when im at sch,im worried of my mum at home,worried hv her take her lunch,everything ok??...m i worried too much???
really duno...n start from next week i hv2 say there during weekdays,n left my mum alone..im really so worried n luckily at last she stay at relatives haose at nite..huh...
i really dun hope2 live at tis type of life...bt wat2 do..hv2 face it n hope it will over soon,b4 im getting put of control...haiz...all these i hv2 tell hu???hu should i express my feelings??duno..duno...everything i oso duno..
hope tmr will be a brighter day!!!!

由感而发

把房门推开
躺在床上发呆
我读着自己的对白
回忆像书本一页页翻开
我鼓起勇气向你说明白

你的一句不想恋爱
成就了我的失败
你说得愉快
我听了悲哀

我长得不帅
只是个无赖
也没什么能耐
能够与你相爱
我只希望你能过得精彩

我压抑着无奈
选择了离开
没有了我的存在
你依然能够笑起来
生活依然精彩

i'm alright
不必为我感到感慨
我只能默默等待
希望等待
能换来花开
即使那已经是遥远的未来

拜拜
我的爱

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anonymous lame zai

MY 2008 ^.^

its now 1am on31st DeC 2008.i shud have slept but instead get out from my room and decided to blog here. finally i come to the end of this year.jus wish to record all the things that i hv experienced throughout this year.

HAPPIEST>>1
To be qualified as esther"s happiest event in 2008, its no doubt joining 2008 children camp.Through this camp, i know a lot of good buddies in my life especially gan,siewling n peiwen. haha..before that , we are lik strangers when seeing each other in the library.but surprisingly our friendship get strengthened till now after the meaningful children camp!haha..of course, idid knw a lot of other pbhp frenz too which highlighted my life.we hv gone through ipoh trip, teluk batik trip, steamboat, cycling,sawah padi trip, gua tempurung trip, sungkai trip etc.those happy n memorable moments wil keep inside my heart forever n i appreciate our friendship very muc. i jus hope no matter how, we can still keep in touch..haha

>>2
my spm result. though its nt the perfect1, i m contented as i get wat i wish at las.my hard work is paid off finally.i m proud of myself. along this 18 years, i hv done my bes in my academic n i hv no regret!i really wanna thank those who give me deepest support during exam period when i need motivation the most.without u guys, i wont be succesful. now wat i wish hv been achieved, so i got to put more effort to realise my nex dream! i knw the process is hard n overwhelmed with tonnes of challenges. but i got no choice.i hv chosen the path..i got to work hard!

SORROW PART>>
yea..its no doubt the most sorrow part..it keeps haunting me till now. i got cheated!i give whatever i can n do whatever u lik jus to strenghten our friendship!i thought u value it as wat i do.but i jus kept overwhelmed by disappointment!i keep telling myself to forgive n i did it. and it ended to hurt me more!i m lik a fool! u give me the happiest memory n the most sorrow part, did u ever know?u wont knw forever cos i never track any sadness on ur face.nw u r lik a liar to me! anyway, thanks for stepping into my life n give me this lesson. start from 2009, u r depleted from my memory, frenz..

APOLOGIZE>>
To my dearest family, i always feel sorry to them especially my grandma n mother, i never play my role as a good granddaughter n daughter. whenever i come bac, i keep hanging around wit my friends n never take time to chat wit u all..i m sorry..i love u! nobody can ever take over ur place!

NEW YEAR RESOLUTION>>
-In my study , i wish to achieve my target n get the entrance to my dream University
-i wish to control my bad tempered n always have a good relationship with my family n friends
-jus lik the birthday wish , the third 1 is always kept inside the heart..haha..shuuuu...

whatever had passed, i wish to let it go n have a good start in the year 2009!gambahteh , YinSHia!!

Merry Christmas 2008

hohoho~~really had a memorable n nice christmas celebration wit u guys yday...especially the gift exchanging session..i always dream to hv such activitiy during christmas..at las we all did it.it was so fun!!i think the the value of the gift really does nt matter..the most important part is we all really paid effort while choosing the gift right?n we enjoyed the process..i dunno how to describe the feeling together wit u all..it is instead so warm n fun to gather wit u all..i miss the laughter when we are all together...haha..although sometimes we did purposely make fool of some ppl, but its jus for fun...do hope that all of us wont mind..few more days a new year 2009 is coming..i sincerely hope that we all can still keep in touch well with each other...its nt easy to find a gang lik this..its lik a family for me!!i always feel appreciate to know u guys..haha...and lastly happy advanced birthday to siewling! we purposely celebrated it earlier cos some of us might be leaving for study 2mrw..gan had sacrificed for a lot to make this celebration a success one...fetch us here n there...haha...so siewling, u knw how to balas balik la?hhaa...joking la..

yinshia^^

Goodbye 2008, Hello 2009!!!!!

Erm...2day is 10th of dec alr.20+ days more, wil end tis year..n of course my bday is cuming oso.hehe..hope2 hv a wonderful birthday celebration..aherm...anyway,bac2 my topic.345 days hd past in year2008...left only few days nw...
haiz..tink bac,during early of the year,i hv made sum wishes n things tat i must do during tis year...pheuwss...time flies...i duno whether my wishes hs come true o nt...n im nt sure did my things get done....so hv2 sit bac n refresh bac the whole year..what i have done???
Eherm..well,for me,its really a tough time n can say tough year oso...y???still remember the time i took the result,all the prob i faced when i made my choice,n during tat time im really feel like helpless n blur bout my future...haiz,so scared tat the decision i make wil make me regret,duno wat should i do next..when i saw all my frens enter Uni,still remember wat i felt....terrible...nightmare for me...anyway, i stil hv2 go through my life....
Wee..after all, i felt tat im quite enjoy my life tat i'v chosen.teaching life is fun..felt tat is suit4 me...bt at tis time,i start2 worry wat others tink bout m3...well,after all,i felt beter n nw im proud wat i am doin now!!chldren camp,chinese youth camp,n oso dyc hv coloured my life too...
bsides tis,i can sence n test my friendship among friends...i should say its a good time2 prove the strength n the bond between fren...n i hv seen much bout tat..appreciate it...i can say tat lofe in 2008 is up n down...so it really make me learn a lot....
Ok...anyway,2008 almost past..n now i hv2 make a new wish again..hehe...wat hd past is alr past...so nt only me,hope all of u wil make a new hope4 a brand new year..
erm..let us make a wish...'have a peace world',cz now v can c the world is sick..nt only the enviroment is polluted,the people here r all 'polluted' too...haiz...for me,HAPPINESS is important too..nowadays people are so stress,they seems like not really enjoy their life n misunderstood wat life stand for!!!hehe..so i hope all of us can find the true happiness....
The rest is up to u all la...pls try2 tink4 it...make ur future a beter day..make ur life more meaningful...make ur world bright..n paint ur world wif different colour...PLS.make a beter day for u n for me..

siewling

what does human stand for?

sometimes i feel lik a failure..in dealing wit friends , study , family, anything..thats y i always tel myself that its nt easy to grow up as a human..i sincerely admire those who can live til so old..they have gone through so muc , yet stil live happily..ya..perhaps its easy to seek for happiness..but depends on the character o perspectives that u hold..i m always longing for a happy life.thats the hardest stage in life i guess..i hate disappointment, yet cant avoid it..stil got to go through it one by one..so what does human stand for at las? live until the end of the day n reborn again!!go through all the sadness, sorrow, happiness, excitement, disappointment that u had b4..yea..perhaps..thats human

Yinshia