huh...its a brand new year again..well,2day is the 7th day of year 2009...and is the 4th day i go2 a new sch...
actually since the year end of 2008,many things happen...my mum gt operate, secret..,n the surprised thing i gt transfer2 a sch which is far away from my house..and all these things change my life a lot.really a lot.1st,i lost my chance2 go outing wif frens during holiday..really miss it,n i din enjoy my holiday well too..cz its due to my mum jz operate,n i hv2 take k of her n stay at hospital2 take k of her...n during tat time i jz imagine hw my frens go here n there...n i cant move anywhere..huh..wat a terrible feeling!!!!since then,my life change a lot...
I have2 cook4 my mum everyday..go market every morning..do house chores..hv2 take k of mym mum..u noe tat feelings??every moment i hv2 stay bside her..even she go2 toilet,bath etc...huh..for me,its quite a tough task..u noe,during tat time,im really ....duno hu2 express out my feelings...
ok,next,my transfer2 the new school...erm...wat should i say,its a new experience4 me..a small school...bt im nt very like the way HM treat sum1..haiz..n as i said b4 i hv2 do house work everyday...n cook4 my mum.so when the school reopen,i hv2 wake up early 2 cook sth4 my mum..sumtimes hv2 cook soup the nite b4..n when iim bac from sch its alr 4++,n i hv2 sweep the floor n mop the floor,then hv2 prepare diner again...tats the life when the school life...huh..im really so tired of tat,really...everyday hv2 do so many things...then sumtimes only can rest at 8pm after doin all the stuff.cant imagine hw my life hv2 carry on..n sumtimes when im at sch,im worried of my mum at home,worried hv her take her lunch,everything ok??...m i worried too much???
really duno...n start from next week i hv2 say there during weekdays,n left my mum alone..im really so worried n luckily at last she stay at relatives haose at nite..huh...
i really dun hope2 live at tis type of life...bt wat2 do..hv2 face it n hope it will over soon,b4 im getting put of control...haiz...all these i hv2 tell hu???hu should i express my feelings??duno..duno...everything i oso duno..
hope tmr will be a brighter day!!!!
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really angry wit u ! got so many prob also din tel us!ev time during outing u look ok and u never show it on ur face!!haiz..luckily u stil knw how to express it in the blog!!i know that i m unable to help u even though u tell me when i meet u ! bt at least i can be ur listener! dun u heard that its always better to express instead of hiding evthing in ur heart!i understand ur worries towards ur mum.as i m facing that too!ev though staying in kl, i always worry abt my mum n grandma at home!bt i really cant do anything except calling them!so perhaps u can call ur mum evday!i m sure this wont las forever!ur mum wil recover n u wil get the chance to transfer to a new sch one day!hv faith!there is always rainbow after rainstorm right?i sincerely hope that ev thing wil be fine to u in this new year..be brave to encounter every challenges that are awaiting u !
Yinshia
ya, when you ar outing with us, i really seen your look is well and stil can oways bully me and take a joke with us, but really dun know you ar hiding this problem,and face it.
erm~~~i think i also don't know what can i help u?but~if you hav any thing is need my help, i wil try my best become your helper.
I also had face this prob be4,when my mom is go into hospital and i think hav a smal operation.
i believe you can do all of it even hav many difficulty. and hope your mom wil recovery soon.
well, though i duno who is posting this blog. i guess some1..i dont hope that is the person. Well, everything that happened had its own faith and reason. When the things happened, we couldnt do anything, just accept the circumstances and try your best to do whatever you can do. Like you have to take care of your mom, try to take care of her patiently. I know how's the feeling of when your best friends are going for any vacation together but you cant join. you will feel like you have been left out. However, you should be proud that you have the chance to take care of your mom. She is the brahma in ur house. Buddha had said before that it's better to take care of your own parents, who are the bodhisatva in your house than you did 1000 of good deeds. I sometime will worry of my mom too when i am off studying. Sometime i felt scare when i not receiving any call from her one day. So, i understand you as well. Transfering to a new school isn't that hard to overcome. You have to face it later also where you have to transfer here and there. believe me, and believe in urself that you can overcome all this things. We all support you here... Be tough and Be calm. Everything will have it's own solution. just sooner or later. TRUST ME.
love,
KaiChur
well, i really duno wat 2 say as i never face such prob b4... i guess i m really lucky tat i have a gud family and i dun hav 2 worry anythin about my family.. and i cant really imagine ur situation rite now... perhaps i m already gone mad if i were u... n i truely respect u right now... u r a tough person n willing to face any challenge... for me... it is challenge tat makes a person grow stronger... so, u muz face da problems wit courage n dun ever give up... i hav faith in u... i cant giv much opinion but i do hope tat u can manage 2 solve all ur porbs soon n if u nid help, do ask help from anyone of us... i'm sure v r much more like a family rite now... any prob juz inform us n v will surely try our best 2 help u... im not sure whether u still take us as fren o not... never told us about tis... i might b nobody but i can still at least help u a bit rite? hope u can stay tough.. all da best...
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if i were ur mum, im truly touched by what u're doing rite now for me.if i were ur mum, i know i have a great daughter who has filial piety, to take care of me during my endurance with the pain and help me around with house chores.if i were ur mum, i'd feel proud of u,because u swallow all ur sorrow so that u never let me know to worry bout u. and if i were ur mum,i know u place ur family before ur friends,even though both are equally important to u that it is so hard to make a choice.
just hang on there my friend! i've been through similar situations as u, and going through it.just that my mum's less severe, but severe enough to keep me by her side every day in case the injury recurs. ur mum will recover soon. make sure the medications are on time to avoid any post-operation complications, especially hygiene. regarding house chores, if house keeping is way too heavy, try to reduce it in one way or another. mop d floor twice every week. soup is easier to cook if u have slow cooker, and it's better for recovering people too.
turn to ur relatives for help when u're exhausted. u are bonded by blood, so don't shy when u need their help. they'll understand this. if really feel paiseh, just buy them some stuff when go visit them in d future. as for friends, u can tell us what u're facing. words sometimes do a better job than speech and yeah, i'll always check u out here.
hang on there! u must really take good care of yourself to be with ur mum. seek for support from relatives when there's too much to handle, or too tired to carry on. friends could be ur mental support to put things through. sometimes, u'll never know what u've got.
when god closes a door, He opens a window. (buddha instead of god? hehe) for me, i never knew i manage to go through this. i know i've grown up,learning to take up responsibilities. last time when i went for interview, the interviewer asked me what makes me feel proud of myself. Not good results, i told her, but fulfilling the responsibility of a daughter when my mum was in need of care.
take care my friend! u know who you are. be strong ya!
what i would like to say is already said by all ur friends. No matter what happens, we will always support you, be it from the front or the back. We will become ur pillar of support. Honestly, everybody is proud of u to become a filial daughter, not everyone can do it, neither do i. Well, nth is impermanence. Sun will shine again no matter wut happen, storm, haze. tide will change, and so do ur life.
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